WOODSHOCK was Awesome!!!! :)
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So I'm at matt's and we got back from woodshock about 11 this morning. I had soooo much fun. Friday the guy's played (Mayavirupa), they put on an awesome show, annie said that Matt looked like a rock star hehe:) He's soo adorible. There were some pretty cool booths at woodshock, I got some new body jewelry. I was soo excited... I got three pieces of jewelry for ten dollars. Then friday night everyone partied (not sure if I spelled it right and don't care) and I stayed up and chilled for a lil while but I had to go to bed b/c I had to be at work at 8:45am the next day and it was an hour drive back to columbus. So I woke up butt ass early and people were just going to bed LOL! I went to work then headed back to Woodshock.
Saturday was a ton of fun. I got back to the camp site and found matt and a bunch of other friends swimming in the pond. They wanted me to get in but I had just showered and I didn't have any bathingsuite bottom's, dummy me left my dirty clothes at my house when I stopped after work and didn't think to keep shorts or something with me. For the rest of the day I just sat around, listened to some bands that I can't remember the names, bought a haki sack, chilled with people, and then bub let me wear a pair of his shorts to go swimming in :) Later that night I put myself into an altered state of mind (haha) and went to see All that Remains, and chimaira play. When Chimaira came on matt put me on his shoulders.. it was fuckin awesome. Later about two thirds of the way through the show Matt was talking about taking me backstage with him to meet Chimaira, because matt had a band pass. Well turns out that the band passes that are good for the day aren't good for the night. Only people with Chimaira or in the Chimaira crew could get back there. SOOOO OF Course, Matt and I snuck backstage LOL... we watched the remainder of the show from the side of the stage and when they came off stage matt got to talk to the lead singer and the bass player. It was a lot of fun and I got to do something I never would have expected I would do. I'm not very outgoing as many of you know.
Well next weekend is VileFest next weekend which is in Circleville, Mayavirupa play's on Sunday, I dont' know the time yet but you should come, you can get ahold of me and I can get you tickets. It should be another fun filled weekend and there will be some kickass bands.

I Hate Being Busy!
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Well tommorow is Woodshock where MAYAVIRUPA will be playing with about 50 other bands... one of the bands being CHIMAIRA. Things with matt and I are going really well, we've had our little issues, more like I've had my issues with some of his friends not really knowing how to react to me. They seem to take me a little too seriously and they seem to kinda expand on things I say. I've decided that I'm going to only really talk to Matt, Stephen, and to an extent Jay, Amy, and Tiff... I don't know how much I can say to the other's because I don't know how they're going to take anything and I really don't want to deal with any more drama. I thought that high school was bad but damn, I hope that all of this has just been a series of unfortunate event's LOL!
On another topic I got a tattoo about a month ago, it's the initials LLM, those are my best friends mom's initials... we've been friends since we were like four years old and her mom died about five years ago. (just a little background) I got the tattoo done at evolved down on campus and it looks AMAZING!
I've been really busy with work, I got a job working at AAA it's pretty good.. I need to thank my teacher for hooking me up with the job when school starts back up. Other than work I've been selling merchandise for the band, and spending time with matt.. then my mom decided that we would move again so it's just non-stop! I've been on the go soo much that I'm lucky I was able to get my shit together to get a well over due oil change in my car :) Now I need to find the time and money to get new tires on my car. DOES IT EVER STOP?!?!?!?!?! I'm pretty sure it doesn't. I really miss hanging out with a lot of my friends and just chillin, hopefully once it's starts to hit fall and winter I wont be as busy and things will slow down.. I don't know if i'll be that lucky though. Well I hope to hear from some of you soon and next weekend is Vile Fest in Circleville, you can contact me to get tickets it's going to be a kick ass show I'll put more info on about it later.

Conner Oberst Died?!
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So all day I've been chillin with my Abby and anticipating getting to see my baby. I love how I'm about to start getting all cute to go see matt and watch the guys play and I decide to call Matt's house b/c I havn't heard from him for the past two days... well turns out that the guys didn't get home until 5 in the morning b/c they were recording and therefore they canceled practice b/c they were all very tired (understandable). However, there was/is a very disapointed Lara... oh well. On top of that while I'm on the phone finding out all this bad news I also find out that Conner Oberst the lead singer of Bright Eyes died. His body was found in his apartment in Paris and cause of death is to be determined. Now the once happy Lara is on the verge of tears, not only did an amazing artist die but I'm not going to get to go to practice and Abby still isn't going to meet the band and my boyfriend. All day I was just waiting for the time when I would get to go see Matt and now I'm not going to get to see him. To top it all off he didn't call I know he was up late but when I called the house he had been up for an hour and a half... why couldn't he have called and explained why he didn't call me last night? I don't know but I'm not even going to ask! I'll just be upset for the rest of the night and see him tommorow. This is why relationships suck b/c people always get dissapointed over little things. If I was single there would be nothing to be disapointed about... but I care about my Matt to much to wish I was single.

I Hate Doctor Visits
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So since my dad is going to be quitting his job pretty soon I've been franticly making doctors appointments. Well yesterday I had to go to Mansfield to visit the eye docotor to get a years worth of contacts, and then I had to go to the chiropracter to have him give me a shoe insert, adjust my back, and tell me what I need to do to keep my back and legs from getting worse. As it turns out my hips are off... well that means that since one hip is lower than the other one of my legs is longer than the other by 5mm, the reason for this is my scoliosis getting worse and my muscles manipulating my hips and pelvis. So now I have a lift in my left shoe to make my legs even and try to correct the problem, not only is it when I'm standing but also when I'm sitting... so I get to put a tv guide under my left ass cheak when sitting so that my hips are even when I'm sitting. I sure do hope that this works and we are able to get my back and hips to the way they're supposed to be so that I don't have to do this shit for the rest of my life.
On a better note things with matt and I are going good. He seems to really care about me and I know that my feelings are getting stronger for him :) I'm such a girl. He's just really sweet, granted everyone has their bad moments and people might say that it's early on in the realationship and everything may seem great but it wont be later on. I'm sorry but I'm not stupid I know that the further into a relationship you get the more you learn about the person and that when you get further into a relationship there are bound to be arguments. However, things are going well.. and I'm really happy that I found Matt and that we're together LOL! Let's just hope that things last.

Hola!
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So all this graduation crap is over with, my boyfriends band is playing shows again, and I'm moving. Mom wants to move back to marion and I would love to do that also, especially since Matt (my bf) lives in Marion. However, we are waiting a year and until then I have to move back into Slate Hill :(
I got an interview at AAA and hopefully I'll get the job... wish me luck! There's a show at Club Impact in deleware next saturday on the 25th (june) and it will probably start around 9:00pm, anyone who can make it should show up, I'll definatly be there. Mom and I are moving on the 30th of July and I would love some help moving if at all possible b/c with my mom's back problems and my progressing back problems it's a little hard for us to lift and move a lot. Just give me a call and let me know if you can help, I can't garuntee that you'll be paid but my mom has been known to provide money for help moving. If anyone know's of any receptionist job openings please let me know, I have an interview but that doesn't mean I have a job and I'm always looking.
So my friend Ashley is pregnant and she had two baby showers awhile back and I wasn't able to make it to either of them. I feel really really bad b/c I havn't been keeping in touch with her or anything and she's still calling me, I'm suprised she hasn't just said "fuck lara" and erased me from her memory. She called me again today to tell me that her and her boyfriend are having a baby girl and she's due july 5th, I'm sooooo happy for them. I feel really bad though b/c I didn't make it to her baby shower and I havn't even seen her since the begining of her pregnancy. Oh well I just need to learn to make some time to go chill with her. Well, I'm really excited for this job interview and I'm really excited to move? LOL I just hate the putting everything in boxes and then when we move in trying to unpack everything, it doesn't help that I have the bigger bed and dresser and I'm getting a really small room. I have no clue how it's going to work but oh well mom will have to deal with it b/c in my opinion if it doesn't work then I'm moving some of my stuff into her room HAHAHAHA that's what she gets for being selfish! I mean she doesn't even sleep in her bed so why does she need the big room for her twin size bed that no one sleeps in? She sleeps in her recliner in the living room! What does she need such a big room for? I could understand if she had my full size bed and everything but the fact is SHE DOESN'T! Well now that I've done a little ranting I'm going to go find something better to do with my time :)

It's Finally Over!!!!!!!!
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Well I've finally graduated and I would like to congradulate all of you who graduated also. It doesn't really feel any different, it kinda feels like I'm on summer vacation. The really weird thing is that I keep forgeting what day of the week it is. LOL! I was talking to Joy this morning about going to go visit our friends who are in jail on tuesday... the funny thing is that today is tuesday and it is the day I'm supposed to go visit my friends who are in jail and i didn't realize it until I was already in Marion. For some reason I was thinking it was the weekend, I mean it definatly feels like it's the weekend. I feel really bad that I'm not going to be able to go see Justin and them today, I guess I'll have to wait until next tuesday and go visit. It's so crazy he's in jail though. He and some others got in trouble for selling acid... dumbasses shouldn't have been doing that shit in the first place but they can't do anything about it now. Well, today I went to AAA to see about getting a job... I hope I get the possition, I really need a job and they pay good and are offering the hours I want. I so have the cutest little boy sitting next to me right now :) it's my friend Beths little boy Keenan... it's so hott outside but they're house stay's pretty cool and they don't even have air conditioning. Well I have to help watch this little devil... anyone who hasn't gotten an invite yet my graduation party is this saturday June 11, 2005 at High Banks Metro Park off of state route 23... it will start at 2:00pm and end at 4:00pm snacks and refreshments will be provided. Look for blue and red balloons, a gold mustang, a big teal van, and my car. Hope to see everyone there.

Things Are Lookin Up :)
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Okay... so basicly I have four more day's of school and two days of exams and I'm finished with high school forever!!!! Plus lonely lara has found a guy. He's nice, cute, and interested in me LOL.... However, Lara is as pathetic as always, I really like this guy, he seems great and I'm really really attracted to him. All I do is complain about how I get so lonely and then when the opportunity presents itself... I'm Scared! Why can't I just accept that something good could happen to me? Why do I have to get scared and worried? Oh well, I just hope that this isn't going to get my hopes up to put them back down and me get hurt. I hate getting hurt. I don't see that happening but who know's it happens. All I know is if things work out with Matt and I, I would be sooooooooo HAPPY :)Well, graduation is June 5 and practically all of my friends are coming! I'm really really excited. I just hope that after graduation I can find somewhere to go and party, see graduation is on a Sunday and so I don't really know if there are going to be people really partying but if it comes down to it I know that Beth isnt' working right now so can chill with her and have some beers and just have a good time. I will hopefully update before graduation but if not wish me luck and if you havn't been invited then you are now and you are now and you better be there.

Senior Year Is Coming To An End :)
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So I know that I can't be the only one feeling the pressure of the end of senior year! Exams are coming up and everyone seems to be assigning projects and papers and there too much to get done is such a short amount of time. I shouldn't even be on here right now.... oh well. I only need two of the classes I'm taking to graduate so I guess I can slack a little right? LOL I love how on my interum today it said that I have a D+ in Classical Humanities...I don't get it, I've done every homework assignment accept maybe 1, I've been studying like crazy and I thought I was doing really really well... looks like i was WRONG! I cannot wait to get outta that place and away from the people there.... everyone drives me up he wall. Hell, I get along with the teachers better than the students HAHAHAHA... oh well I should prolly go work on some home work.

Torture! :(
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I don't understand why after about a year and a half of being apart I can't seem to get him off my mind... it makes me want to cry not having him in my life. It's as if I don't know what to do with myself with out him there along the way. He makes me feel whole, in a way no else has ever done, sure I've tried moving on and forgeting about the past and but as much as I try and as close as I think I get I'm always just missing him more and more. People say that we should get back together and that we are meant for eatch other... but how can we be so inseperable when we've been so far apart for so long. It's been said that I should just let him know how I feel and how I really want him back in my life, but how do you tell someone that when they don't even want to talk to you? Maybe I'm not trying hard enough or maybe he's stuborn but there's not much else to do, I'm not going to try and force him to talk to me if he doesn't want to maybe he'll come around and maybe he wont, all I know is I need to find way to deal with this or I"m going to go insane. I just wish the dreams would stop, I don't want to be reminded of how much I miss him everytime I go to sleep, all the hugging and kissing and I missed yous really hurts inside, it makes me feel so incomplete when I wake up. Why can't he just talk to me? sure I made a mistake and I apoligized for it (awhile ago) but it's like he can't accept it... why can't he just accept that I really am sorry? I really didn't mean for things to get so out of hand. I just wish I could go back in time and take back everything that was said and happened and still be together... he really cared about me and I really really cared about him, you can't tell me it was just a high school fling. There's not way... I mean three years!!!!!! and the passion, the passion between us the way we were like magnets attracted to each other, I mean a year and a half later still thinking about him every other thought... there has to be something there I mean he has to feel something too.... why can't we just talk about it and put the past behind us... reconcile, we don't even need to be a couple again just as long as he's in my life.

I don't want to be in High School anymore!
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Ok so I don't want to sound like a whiney bitch... but I'm sooooo sick of high school, the people in high school and definatly all the DRAMA! Can people please please GROW UP. Ok well now that I got that out of my system... hehe... I just want to say how excited I am that I finally have a Prom date!!!!!!!! Ladies and Gents may I present to you... my prom date.... JOY BURNS!!!!!!!! wooooooo! ya, go lara! Damn how did you land that date, you lucky son of a bitch! Yah Yah I know... I couldn't believe it either, it was sooo sudden and unexpected all of a sudden I was just sitting there with my little bouncer and I was talking to her about the troubles of high school and trying to find a prom date when she said...."I'll go to Prom with you!" I was overwhelmed I didn't know what to say :) I'm sooo looking forward to Prom NIGHT now HAHAHA! Then Abby and them were talking to me about everyone going in an excursion limo that seats 22 people, but I said NO THANKS me and my date want to cruse ALONE in the Stang... that's right baby just us :) I feel really really happy right now... I'm normally kinda a depressed or quiet person but I get these spurts every so often where I"m just EXTATIC! and I don't know what to do with myself... maybe it's because the weather is nice outside.
So I'm in Kent Tue night and Wed morning b/c I was going to get my car during the day Wed.. it almost blew up (long story) I don't feel like explaining it. Anyways I'm in Kent with JOY and we are out to breakfast at The Wild Goat (good food) and Abby txt's me so I txt her back well while I'm getting ready to hit send all of a sudden my phone turns off so i go to turn it back on and it keeps turning off... so I take my battery off and put it back on... my battery broke and it wouldn't go back on my phone and all I was doing was txt ing!!!!!! Then Verizon wanted to charge me $50 to get a new phone or battery! I looked at dad and he said F that... so I got a new phone :) I love my daddy he spoils me way toooo much and i think he knows it but hey I'm not going to tell him to stop HAHAHAHA! But being the conciderate daughter that I am I got the second cheapest phone they had that was of course still cute.
Joy and I have been exercising it's quite nice... granted it hurts like hell... but it should pay off in the end, hell maybe my boobs will get a lil smaller, I can't take it anymore. I swear they grew some more but I don't think that's possible b/c I don't want to have to wear old ladie bras or have to special order them im the mail LOL! Well I keep typing and typing and I can't seem to stop... I'm mean I'm talking about my tit's on the internet LOL... how pathetic am I haha... Peace out! :)

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